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God Is Within

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Written by Juli Somers

“But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well” Luke 12:31

Grace happens in so many ways.  Recently, it happened for me in the middle of the night.  I was in between waking and sleeping when my mind started to kick in with it’s litany of worries and attachments.

I was detached enough from a typical awake state to consciously observe these thoughts. Eventually, like the sun breaking through the clouds, I watched those limits surrender themselves to a greater awareness.  It was as if God reached down and changed the channel for me.  At that point a wave of inspired, positive thoughts and a pure knowingness of Truth began to move through me.  It was grace.

Where my mind was getting stuck in limits from my past, part of me was aware that I was just replaying the same old story.  And frankly,  I was tired of hearing it.  I had read those chapters too many times. Reminds me of a line I love from a Leonard Cohen song, “there is a crack in everything and that’s how the light gets in”.  And there I was in the middle of the night focusing on the crack when the light finally caught my attention.

What was that incoming message of inspiration in the middle of the night for me you might ask? From this beautiful state of grace, I was shown that I could have anything I wanted.  That I was truly the creator of my experience via my thoughts and emotions and whatever was playing out inside of me would quite simply play out in my life.  I understood that my life was the mirror of my consciousness.

I was shown that the things I struggle with are a result of my perception of myself and life.  Change my perception and my life changes.  And I could also see how part of me knew I was choosing the limits! Perhaps I thought it was the edge that my soul needed to grow from, I don’t know.  I became conscious of my unconsciousness if that makes sense. With that realization, the Light began to shine brighter and I accepted that I could change any and all of these perceptions.

Whatever shows up in front of me in this world of appearance is the effect of what channel I am tuned into inside of me. Limits? Okay, here’s the ‘I Can’t Have This’ drama playing out in my life.  What if I change the inner channel to…Endless Possibilities? Suddenly, I am watching (and living!) an entirely different show.  My choice.  I can create what I want.  I just need to take the responsibility for where I am choosing to focus my energy.

The greatest gift from that glimpse into the eternalness of who I am was being shown that, truly, I need only focus on my connection to Source to be given everything. My focus on the ‘cracks’ in my life or on what my ego is saying isn’t good enough in my life, is a waste of my life force. All this time the Light was just waiting for me to notice it. It’s my ability to have the Allness of life that shifts and hides in proportion to my consciousness.  God doesn’t move.
“…because the kingdom of God is within…”

Reverend Juli Somers is the Executive Director of The Center For Inner Truth. She can be reached at 505-920-4418.


And Then Comes Ralph

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Written by Juli Somers

“Aerodynamically, the bumble bee shouldn’t be able to fly, but the bumble bee doesn’t know it, so it goes on flying anyway”.  – Mary Kay Ash

What propels us to move out of our comfort zones and take new steps? We are wired to keep evolving and meeting ourselves anew as who we really are; a limitless spirit in a body. To do that, we are constantly asked or pushed and pulled to transform ourselves by creating change within and in what we give to the world.

Recently,  I was awakened to a next step for me to take. I have wanted to write a book since I was a child. I’m not sure why, but it was always a silent goal floating around inside of me to accomplish one day. The thought hadn’t crossed my mind for many a year. And then comes Ralph.

About a month ago, my friend Ralph sent me an email and said that he had an idea – why don’t I write a book? Since being a writer is part of his repertoire, he said he would support me in that process if I wanted to give it a shot. I read his email, questioned his sanity, and became amazed at the many reasons that immediately surfaced as to why I couldn’t possibly write a book. The biggest reason was, of course, that I have nothing to say.

We met, Ralph and I, and he told me a very simple way to go about it. He showed me how a book could be as uncomplicated as a small spiral bound notebook. Okay, I thought, maybe there is some possibility here. How hard can it be to commit to writing at least fifteen minutes a day on whatever comes up for me as he suggested? Surely I can do that!

Initially, it was rather magical. I would simply write what the day seemed to beautifully call forth from me. The next scene, a few weeks later, shows us Juli at her computer staring blankly at the screen…”Let’s see, two minutes have gone by…only thirteen more. Or, maybe those two minutes don’t technically count since I haven’t written anything…oh, there goes another two minutes…maybe I need a snack to get the words flowing”. Sure, an easy process alright.

Growth happens when you are ready to say yes to something new inside of you and take action to bring it into manifestation. Initially that can be exhilarating and generate a lot of enthusiasm. Each word you write is a sacred chalice that comes directly from the gods during this period (if writing is your next step). Then the honeymoon ends.

Suddenly, you may feel like you are pushing a boulder up a mountain. You really want to move forward in this new direction and are excited by the idea, but there at the top of the mountain are all of your past limits and old beliefs trying to stare you back down to the bottom. All the invalidating voices start to speak up and resistance to what you are doing can begin to feel overpowering. As Wayne Dyer states so eloquently in Excuses Begone!, “Simply being cognizant of your excuse making will open you up to vast arenas of new possibilities. You can begin this process by paying attention to the false part of yourself that believes in limitations. Simply observe the thoughts in your mind and feelings in your body and note when they don’t resonate with your authentic self.”

The choice is to turn around and take what appears to be the easy route back to familiar ground or you can decide to focus your energy on what you want to create. Decide that you can be the person you want to be and do the things you want to do. Free yourself of the limiting beliefs that keep you from going forward by choosing new ones.

All you need to do is take the next little step on the road to your goal. Suddenly all those next steps add up and you are holding a book you’ve written or on the job that you were afraid to apply for or having coffee with your future mate. All it takes is a little courage, a lot of perseverance and a good friend named Ralph to get the energy moving.

Reverend Juli Somers is the Director of The Center For Inner Truth.  She can be reached at 505-920-4418.


Just Breathe!

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Written by Stacia Synnestvedt

A regular practice in my life has been remembering to consciously breathe. Yea, yea I’ve never actually forgotten to take those simple breathes that supply oxygen to my cells – but doing it in a very intentional manner is one of those things that was actually shut down during my childhood.

When I was younger, I clearly remember some of the adults in my life taking big exhales during times of stress, and being the empathic child that I was I quickly absorbed all the “yuck” they were exhaling as if I were an extra absorbant sponge.  As one might guess, it didn’t feel so good.  I remember at one point making a conscious decision that I would try very hard never to make noise when I breathed so as not to affect others around me.

Fast forward 20 years and I quite frequently found myself feeling my body all locked up, headachy, stiff, unenergized, etc. It took me several years to realize part of why I felt so terrible was because my breaths had turned into shallow inhales, and only when absolutely neccessary.  Eventually, I finally made the connection that the decision I had vividly made when I was a child, to take silent breaths, had turned into something so much more.  I had completely pushed any consciousness out of the way I was feeding my body what it needs to support not only my cells, but also my spirits’ ability to connect into my physical being.

When I started my meditation practice and began taking classes at the Center I would frequently hear the teachers taking loud intentional breathes to incite the students to do the same.  This was something I resisted, even then, sitting in meditation giving to no one other than myself.  Once I began thinking about being a teacher I remember thinking “Yea, but I’m not going to take those loud breaths for everyone to hear, I just can’t do that!”

During my clairvoyant training our class was going to have a group breath session led by Juli Somers, and I was in so much resistance to it that I actually, unconsciously, manifested a 102 degree fever and had to miss class.  Once I finally started to put things together I realized how much I dreaded allowing myself to release during intentional breaths,  especially when there were others around, and I decided to schedule a breath session with Juli.  This was an event that changed my life.  These sessions, where one releases whatever they are holding at an unconcious level, via guided and intentional non-stop breathing for an hour, quickly became very addictive for me.  I utilized this form of release throughout my pregnancy and am so thankful for how it helped me to move through things that I was working on during this time.

Even today, as I understand how important the breath is for the mind, body, spirit connection’s health, I still find myself holding on and resisting those glorious lung movements when things get frantic.  So, daily I am trying to catch myself when I feel my chest contracting and take a pause to take a deep breath in and then loudly exhale.

Unlike when I was a child surrounded by those wise adults who knew that they needed to purposely breathe to work through their stress, but unwise in the knowledge that they were blowing it right into my path, I strive to breathe in an intentional manner. I utilize my energy awareness tools, to ensure that I am not expelling what I am releasing to those around me who might unknowingly absorb it, as I did when I was a child.

My intentional breathing has now become something that actually evokes delightful giggles from my son.  Hooray for breaking old patterns.! Ahhhhhh…..

Reverend Stacia Synnestvedt can be reached through her website www.intuitiveavenues.com.


Designed To Heal

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Written by Juli Somers

Here comes the sun and I said, “It’s Alright”. – The Beatles

Someone asked me at a community fair recently if spiritual healings are just for physical problems. The beauty of spiritual healings is they affect change on all levels. Different perhaps then a simple removing of symptoms, this type of healing goes to the core of an issue and affects change in one’s energy, consciousness, and ultimately, one’s life.

My analogy is when you plant a seed it takes root underground before manifesting as a particular plant above ground. Whatever you are experiencing in your life first took root on a deeper level; could be stemming from an old traumatic experience that was never totally released or a belief that came in at a young age that doesn’t serve your well being or even some energy brought in from a past life. This can show up present day on any level. It may appear in your life as a body issue or even an inability to manifest the kind of relationship or career you want. If you just remove the ‘symptoms’ without addressing the root cause, it will return again in the same or different form. Ever pull out a weed but don’t get all the roots? Then you know what I’m talking about – it sprouts right back up.

Picture a buoy. It is designed to float and has a built-in ability that propels it to the surface when it gets submerged. Life is designed to heal us; kind of a cosmic buoy. Whatever you do that doesn’t support your wholeness or isn’t in alignment with your purpose as a spiritual being, will surface as some challenge in your life. In Kabbalah, the term is Tikkun, which means correction. The universe, like any good parent, is directing us back onto our path of greatest transformation.

I was giving a healing to a woman at our weekly healing clinic at the Co-op the other day. She asked for a healing on her lungs and cough. I shared with her that I saw a lot of emotional congestion; regrets and past energies not released or forgiven. During the healing she coughed a lot which was unsettling for her. When we finished, she shared that often she notices with successful healings that she doesn’t cough at all while they are happening.

I responded that things sometimes appear to get worse before they get better. The tendency can be to resist or judge what is happening in that kind of situation, but it might be the means by which the blockage gets released. I don’t know what someone needs to experience before they can fully have a healing, but I trust that whatever is happening is perfect in the moment. As a healer, I know that ultimately the healing is out of my hands.

We can all be healers no matter the profession. The energy behind what you do affects everything and everyone around you. Infuse what you are doing with love. Spontaneously tell someone what you find beautiful about them. Give a smile to the person who looks like they just ate a sour lemon. Be the sun peeking through a cloudy day – maybe they walk away and become the sun to everyone else they encounter that day. Suddenly the world is a brighter place. If you need to be reminded of your sun-giving ability, come to the healing clinic for a tune-up or take a class to learn life changing tools to create a better world inside and out. Be of good cheer.

Reverend Juli Somers is the Director of The Center For Inner Truth.  She can be reached at 505-920-4418.


Synchronistic Signs

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Written by Stacia Synnestvedt

It’s coming up on my own personal annual holiday, one that I lovingly call “Pull Your Head Out of Your Arse Day”.  I decided to recognize this annual day several years ago when I was reflecting on the odd “coincidence” that I happen to of had two car accidents on the same date. The first was when I was in High School and the second one was 7 years later.

In retrospect, I can see they both occurred around times in my life where a major transition was about to occur – but I was wanting things to stay the same and completely ignoring the little signs that I was being given to nudge me in a new direction. So what did I get instead? A big-ole-whammy (of a car accident) that forced me to change; and the fact that I had two incidents where this happened on the exact same date is more than simply coincidence. Perhaps it’s even so that I could be here today, telling you about this holiday of mine.

I have become a big fan of noticing the coincidences that spring up in my life and using them as synchronistic signs to guide me.  Hopefully, taking note of them before things get to the point of needing as big of a “wake-up call”, or what I like to think of as a push in a new direction, as a car-accident.  The more we can recognize and act upon even the simplest of those “Wow, what are the ODDS?” incidents the more we begin to be in the natural flow of our lives.

Syncronistic signs can come in all shapes and sizes – anything from feeling particularly strapped for cash and receiving a free cup of coffee at your favorite morning shop to running into an old friend that you haven’t seen for years right in the middle of New York City. How we interpret and utilize the sign can totally vary depending on our state of awareness at that specific moment in time, and it is often times easy to completely miss them.  However, the one thing that I do know it is that the Universe is designed to carry us along our path and no matter where we get hung up on a rock in the endless river of our source energy another little push or pull will be provided to help get us moving again.

Not too long ago, I was in a situation where I was going to be pushed in a direction that I wasn’t so sure was a good idea.  I prayed to God for something to get me out of it, and minutes later I was presented with a pretty big “Are you kidding me?” kind of coincidence that could have been a very EASY out; however, I didn’t recognize it in that moment and I was instead agreeable to continuing on the path that I had been resisting.  In retrospect, I found myself regretting that I didn’t notice the coincidence was in fact my sign from God as a way to alter the path.  However, it doesn’t really matter which direction I chose at that moment because there are lessons to be learned from the course things are on now.  I believe there will be more signs and forks in the road that will continue leading me on my path – in the same direction I’ve always been headed – back to aligning with myself.

I encourage you to dismiss the notion that there are any bad “accidents” cooky “coincidences” or “wrong” choices – everything happens for a reason. There is even a something behind why you are here, at this very moment, reading this article and newsletter.  Something to ponder as you flow through this wonderful thing we call life.

Reverend Stacia Synnestvedt can be reached through her website www.intuitiveavenues.com.


Summer Is Always Present

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Written by Juli Somers

“In the depth of winter I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer” – Camus

I know an astrologer who speaks in terms of winter cycles and summer cycles and how we are always moving in and out of both. In a winter cycle, life feels like it has stopped and one experiences restriction and limits. A summer cycle contains more expansive energy and movement. Last year I felt like a snowball in the dead of winter continually picking up speed and girth as I rolled down one rough hill of losses after another. If that doesn’t encourage you to surrender I don’t know what will. However, as the global world continued to shift and deconstruct during the beginning of this year, a very different energy was coming in for me; a lightness that seemed to be purposely hiding from me the previous year. I woke up one morning and noted that the inner snow was indeed melting and yes, the sun was beginning to shine through.

If we didn’t go through these winter cycles, we couldn’t get the gifts that come as a result. Sometimes I feel like a lump of clay on the wheel of life relentlessly spinning to see what I can become. Yet there is only one thing to become and that is me. I learned a lot about resistance this past year and how it is, to me, the antithesis of self-love. Resistance is a striving against what is; nonresistance is seeing things as they are instead of the way you want them to be. Which one do you think brings misery? My mantra has become ‘God does not make mistakes’ whenever something occurs in my life that I don’t understand or particularly like. My trust is deeper after this past year, that if it is happening it is right and I don’t have to understand it. It does help if I can bring myself to accept the events and my responses to them with compassion no matter how uncomfortable it makes me, knowing that it is the way of the universe to keep me on my path and grow my soul. Indeed I have found the summer is always present within the winter cycles because God is always present within me. Nothing can take that away. How loved I am! How loved we all are!

Another thing I experienced is that even when something feels insurmountable it will change.  My grief had an end. And what remained was the love that is always within me. A healer told me many years ago, when I was grieving the loss of a relationship that we can’t really lose anyone. I got it on one level back then and now I know how true it is. When you accept that we live beyond more than this time/space reality, you see that we can’t possibly escape each other! We are all woven together within a beautiful tapestry where spirit is the thread that creates and sustains all life. What a gift this life is….which reminds me of daffodils. I love daffodils. They are one of the first courageous flowers to poke their heads out even before spring really arrives. That bright, bright yellow color screaming joyfully ‘WE ARE ALIVE’; reminding us all that underneath the hard ground of winter there is infinite life just waiting to transform us. Be of good cheer!

In Spirit, Juli
Reverend Juli Somers is the Director of The Center For Inner Truth.  She can be reached at 505-920-4418.


Awakening

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Written by Stacia Synnestvedt

I recently had a dream where I was invited to attend a private meeting with many of today’s great spiritual leaders.  The gathering was held in someone’s home and before things got started we were all sitting in the living room sharing what we were each going to speak about during the meeting.  When it got to be my turn I was a little caught off guard, presuming I got to partake by simply listening to all the goings-on, and I said “Uh, I wasn’t aware that I was going to have to present anything”.  Shock and disbelief from the entire room.  I quickly chimed in, “But, that’s okay, I’ll just make it up in the moment.”  A flood of relief came over everyone as there seemed to be acceptance with that answer, and it was quickly on to the next person.  Throughout the dream I had that feeling – you probably know it – where, as you are taking a nap and just start to wake up your body feels all tingly, relaxed and all around euphoric; but your head feels all numb, you can’t quite wake up and are tempted to roll back over and continue sleeping.

What does this dream mean to me?  Well,  I took it as reinforcement that I am starting to awaken to my role as a spiritual leader, and the essence of what that will look like, in this lifetime, is just starting to manifest into my physical reality.  When I catch glimpses of it through my teaching, doing psychic readings, energy work and meditations I feel amazing, my heart sings and it’s a general state of serenity. However, I’m still in that awakening phase where I’m often tempted to return to my old ways of being, and it’s oh-so-enticing to roll over and go back to sleep.

This shows up in many different ways within my life, especially in the form of self-created blocks or “excuses” to avoid exactly those things that DO feel so good as I start to come out of my cocoon.   Sometimes my heart aches to know what is beyond right here in this moment; and the evil co-conspirators, the ego and my survival instincts, start to get in the way by telling me that I’ll never make it going down this path and I must switch courses by going back to what I already know. As I continue to let go of my personal demons, such as lack and persecution, while increasing my ability to connect more deeply with my spiritual knowingness, I must remind my self that there is only the now. As long as I continue to do the things that inspire me, from moment-to-moment, I am one step closer to finding my eyes more open.  All will be revealed in it’s own time, and not a second sooner.

I sense that all of humankind is being given opportunities to free themselves of past-time ways of being in order to become more authentic and true to the Self.  Whether it be the loss of a job that had no meaning, the letting go of relationships that don’t allow personal growth, or being confronted with other challenges rooted in the ego we are all being asked to find trust within the change. As we go through these challenging and dark times, together, we are awakening for a brighter day. All we have to remember is: make it up in the moment, that’s where the knowing can be found.

Stacia Synnestvedt is the Assistant Director at CFIT. She can be reached thru her website at www.intuitiveavenues.com.


The Domino Effect of Healing

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Written by Stacia Synnestvedt

Has anyone else noticed the domino effect going on?  It seems like it is just one thing after another these days – whether it be something on a global level such as the economy, or to something on a more personal level like communicating about challenging issues.  It’s as if one bit of news leads to another and another. And for some reason there seems to be a shadow on the positive side of everything and the hard stuff is sitting in the wide open sunshine. The doorways are being opened for people to have the opportunity to admit those keep-in-the-closet-ego-type-things like “I don’t have any money” or “I have a problem with you”.  Boy-oh-boy, I am constantly being given opportunities, at what seems like an accelerated pace, to face my demons, come to the truth of it and take action; and I am given chances over and over until I actually heal it within myself by making a shift that is inline with my spiritual knowingness.

How I perceive this is that we are at at time of immense change – a cleansing – on the planet.  What goes in must come out.  So all of the greed and ego that we have lived in for hundreds of thousands of years is now in reverse.  We are experiencing it all, on a very intense level, as we work to rid ourselves of this methodology.  On a higher, spiritual level, all of us have agreed to move into a new time here on earth – one in which we are starting the work for now, but may not even see in our current incarnations because there is so much releasing and healing to do.  Eventually, everything will be less focused on the material and ego, and revolve more around our true-selves: love and light.

I’m bringing this up to remind us, especially myself, that every hardship that we are currently experiencing is an opportunity for healing, and most importantly, growth.  If we can be present with what it is that seems so “hard” and try to live through it as the observer, set on neutral-release, we will be carried on the tides of change bringing us to the shores of a whole new existence.  By learning techniques to become conscious in the cleansing of our old ways we will only help to propel and enhance the energetic vibration of this unavoidable shift. Just like a magnet we will attract the energy,  innately found within each and every person, that aspires to do the same.  There is no better form of community service at this time than to simply take care of yourself, as spirit, on this journey.

However, there is always that pesky little thing called resistance that makes it so hard to simply move through the stories as the observer, release the core of it, and tackle the next one.  Well, we are all human afterall, and that is what we have known up to this point.  Resistance is going to come up even more for us presently because it is connected to all that stuff we are now reversing out – it is our ego’s way of fighting against the change.

I urge all of us to be aware of what we are going through, try to release the resistance and attachment, and open up to what will be presented next.  Now is the time to embrace universal spiritual principles such as grounding, having energy awareness, utilizing intuition and regularly practicing meditation techniques to connect to, and honoring, our inner-selves. Ultimately, helping to bring physical and spiritual knowingness into alignment.

So, who is up for Intro to Self-Healing class?

Reverend Stacia Synnestvedt is the Assistant Director at CFIT.  She can be reached via her website www.intuitiveavenues.com.


Psychic Tools In Everyday Relationships

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Written by Juli Somers

How does using your psychic abilities help you to improve your relationships, grow spiritually and heal on all levels? To start with, redefining the word psychic may help. One definition of psychic is ‘of the soul’. We are all psychic and each of us has a soul. To perceive other people and life from a soul’s perspective allows for a deeper understanding and communication with all things. This more expansive energy of the soul also helps you to stay present in the body and being present naturally creates a greater openness to life. When we can simply permit life to be as it is without judgment or resistance we begin to let go of the limits of the past and heal.

In the realm of relationship, by resting your awareness in the sixth chakra and exercising your ability of clear seeing, you can be the observer of what you are noticing instead of the judge of what you don’t understand. Often our ability to see ourselves and others clearly, gets filtered out by the experiences in life that we don’t forgive and release. Then what we are really seeing or feeling is a reaction based on the unhealed past and triggered through a current situation. Being a neutral observer allows more space for people to be who they are instead of their actions being filtered through the cloudy lens of your past experiences or expectations.

The way to true clarity in seeing others as they are, instead of through your projections, is to be in the present moment. The body is always in present time. Look around you – this is the present moment. Now notice where your awareness is. Are you thinking about something else as you look around?  How often are you eating and not really present with simply eating? Or driving yet your awareness is somewhere else? Reflect on how often you are truly present with another person without your own movies and judgments going around in your head. Wouldn’t it be nice to be able to interact with eachother from our divinity instead of our differences?

Whatever is showing up in the present can be an opportunity to heal what gets triggered inside of you instead of getting stuck on the person who found your trigger. When you find yourself judging someone because they aren’t living up to your picture of right and wrong, bring your awareness back to yourself. Use the situation to release and heal yourself of the energy of judgment.  Let each person you encounter be an opportunity to demonstrate who you really are – Love itself. Each moment really can be a healing moment. Look around. Bring your presence into the now. Let your psychic awareness increase your enjoyment of all the other souls on this journey with you.

In Spirit, Juli
Reverend Juli Somers is the Director of The Center For Inner Truth.  She can be reached at 505-920-4418.


The Winters of Our Lives

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Written by Juli Somers

When I reflect on 2008, what stands out most prominently to me is how many losses I experienced over the course of the year. The final loss was just weeks ago with the death of my mother. I feel like I have been in an unyielding winter cycle  this whole year, and the challenge has been how to grow with it spiritually and, at times, how to just survive it with as much grace as possible.

I grew up in a rural area of the Midwest where we had real winter. Days and nights of many degrees below zero, lots of snowfall, and life as you knew it was forced to come to a standstill. As a child, it was a fun challenge to play outside in the snow and see how long I could withstand the harsh cold. What I also remember about the winter was a silence so profound that I felt I could hear the earth breathe and the incredible beauty contained in that stark landscape. It was dangerous to stay out in it for too long, but at the same time, in the silence and the cold, I connected with my soul.

This past year of endings wasn’t so different from how I experienced those extreme winters. Life as I knew it was forced to a standstill, yet contained within the elements of my grief was a quiet beauty wherein breathed my soul.

In the dead of winter, everything is inside and still. The point of greatest inwardness marks the beginning of a new cycle. Everything expands from this point outward. It is our most inward point, the very end of an exhalation before a new breath is drawn. This is the point from which everything to come later stems. It is the seed that comes out of the seeming nothingness. The summer of our lives cannot exist without the winter cycles. Loss requires you to stay out in the cold, the winter cycle, until the very last bits of the particular death you are facing (loss of relationship, job, health, etc..) are exhaled. When, finally, it is time to draw the inhalation again it is with a new seed having been given birth within.

The first few days after my mom passed, I found myself in a state of wonder. In that deep silence, I felt the grace of death and new life all at once. I felt similar feelings at the birth of Braiden (Stacia’s delightful little boy); seeing his head emerge marking the beginning of his life in a physical body. At the birth, I found myself deeply present beyond time and space and aware of a communion with all of existence. For the first week after my mom’s death, I could feel her everywhere in her new freedom from the body; as if her atoms were being dispersed back into the pool of life. It was a blissful feeling to experience her as pure love within and around me. Eventually it changed and I began to feel a pulling away of her energy from a life I shared with her in time and space. As she was making the soul’s journey home, my internal center began to shift and rearrange. My best description is that it felt like taffy being pulled in two different directions within me. What an amazing process, life and death. Two sides, same coin.

Perhaps all the deaths we go through are to take us to the greater truth of what cannot die. Such as love. Love is never lost; it keeps circling and bringing light to all in it’s path.

In Spirit,
Juli
Reverend Juli Somers is the Director of The Center For Inner Truth.  She can be reached at 505-920-4418.