Written by Juli Somers

“But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well” Luke 12:31

Grace happens in so many ways.  Recently, it happened for me in the middle of the night.  I was in between waking and sleeping when my mind started to kick in with it’s litany of worries and attachments.

I was detached enough from a typical awake state to consciously observe these thoughts. Eventually, like the sun breaking through the clouds, I watched those limits surrender themselves to a greater awareness.  It was as if God reached down and changed the channel for me.  At that point a wave of inspired, positive thoughts and a pure knowingness of Truth began to move through me.  It was grace.

Where my mind was getting stuck in limits from my past, part of me was aware that I was just replaying the same old story.  And frankly,  I was tired of hearing it.  I had read those chapters too many times. Reminds me of a line I love from a Leonard Cohen song, “there is a crack in everything and that’s how the light gets in”.  And there I was in the middle of the night focusing on the crack when the light finally caught my attention.

What was that incoming message of inspiration in the middle of the night for me you might ask? From this beautiful state of grace, I was shown that I could have anything I wanted.  That I was truly the creator of my experience via my thoughts and emotions and whatever was playing out inside of me would quite simply play out in my life.  I understood that my life was the mirror of my consciousness.

I was shown that the things I struggle with are a result of my perception of myself and life.  Change my perception and my life changes.  And I could also see how part of me knew I was choosing the limits! Perhaps I thought it was the edge that my soul needed to grow from, I don’t know.  I became conscious of my unconsciousness if that makes sense. With that realization, the Light began to shine brighter and I accepted that I could change any and all of these perceptions.

Whatever shows up in front of me in this world of appearance is the effect of what channel I am tuned into inside of me. Limits? Okay, here’s the ‘I Can’t Have This’ drama playing out in my life.  What if I change the inner channel to…Endless Possibilities? Suddenly, I am watching (and living!) an entirely different show.  My choice.  I can create what I want.  I just need to take the responsibility for where I am choosing to focus my energy.

The greatest gift from that glimpse into the eternalness of who I am was being shown that, truly, I need only focus on my connection to Source to be given everything. My focus on the ‘cracks’ in my life or on what my ego is saying isn’t good enough in my life, is a waste of my life force. All this time the Light was just waiting for me to notice it. It’s my ability to have the Allness of life that shifts and hides in proportion to my consciousness.  God doesn’t move.
“…because the kingdom of God is within…”

Reverend Juli Somers is the Executive Director of The Center For Inner Truth. She can be reached at 505-920-4418.